My life began with strife and turmoil,
The anger within, was at a slow boil.
My childhood was robbed from me,
At the very tender age of three,
An uncle who was supposed to care,
Showed me that things just weren't fair.
The little girl, whose innocence was stolen,
Whose eyes were tear-filled, puffy and swollen;
Don't tell!~Nobody would understand,
Close your mind~here comes his hand.
So now I'm eleven, the abuse is done,
And I have discovered alcohol for fun.
No more problems; no more stress,
What's happened to me~no one could guess.
Time passed and more addictions came,
I realized that I would never be the same.
My life was consumed with pain and medicating,
Keeping myself numb~ for the next high, I was waiting.
I got married to a man, who always cheated,
He was like my uncle; I felt defeated.
Fourteen years, 2 rapes and 2 children later~ I cried,
Because something inside of me, had truly died.
I damaged my body with self-mutilation,
And fell victim to each and every temptation.
I lost my mind, my soul and my strength,
For my drugs~ I'd go to any length.
A few years later, I attacked a young woman,
And to my surprise, I had prison coming~
I never knew that giving someone a few cuts,
Would prove to the world, that I was nuts!
Snatched from my three sons for seven years,
Nobody could imagine how many tears.
So, I get out, to start my life over,
I tried so hard, to remain sober,
But the hurt within, that I never talked about,
Still held me captive and filled with doubt.
Somehow I knew, that I deserved a second chance,
And that my life could surely be enhanced.
I made a lot of phone calls, to save my own life,
But nobody seemed to want to help me get it right.

Finally, I called on the Lord to see,
If there was an opportunity to be~
The woman that God created to serve,
As soon as I surrendered and got the nerve.
I've been rescued from a self-made hell ~
Blessed with the love of Christ~ I'm doing well!
If I had it to do all over, would I do it?
Yes, it's my story and I'm forced to stick to it!
Thank you Father, for believing in me,
You were able to envision, what I couldn't see.